Its been sometime since i blog...
so i 'm here to say...I am TIRED...

song of the night- if i die young,by the band perry

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a, bed of roses

Sink me in the river, at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother

She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and

Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no

Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a, bed of roses

Sink me in the river, at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom

I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've

Never known the lovin' of a man

But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a

Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,

Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well,

I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I'm a goner

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'

Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a, bed of roses

Sink me in the river, at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)

The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)

Go with peace and love

Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket

Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

say your beautiful...

In this mist of assignment+ presentation time, i took the liberty to....well write here~^^

the tittle says it all....thats what I keep telling myself, and others. Well not men, if its men, i'll "your good-looking"...sounds not so glamorous though.

I've had tough, weird, good, bad , drunk and all you name it week. It was bizarre. I made a list early this year to do the things I should, so far none is tick....all are undone ....and its ........tadaaaa....."APRIL"... how sad for me..

I have inferiority complex, I would say I am quite serious....till the point "need therapy"... but nah... I love the song "Fuckin Perfect"...its suits me..a lot..

in the first and second verse says it all..

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look i'm still around.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel.
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel, like you're nothing.
You're fuckin' perfect to me!

Nobody is perfect by theory, but you guys are to me, cause all you've done, I know i always been a pain, I'm sorry, but I do love you all down in my heart. I experience the best day today, I was given compliment, appreciation, loved, cared, and sugar high, and well pampered....Some one actually say i'm hot, me!!! weee...by a girl. I get happy easily, and yea...i feel beautiful today~^^

But don't forget the night before, i had barbecue. The theme was Broken-ness. I think its apart of us. The speaker was sitting with Reza, talking about jesus and christianity, so Reza ask me was i christian i said yes, he sign and went "ai yai yai" ..i told him not to worry, i won't preach so he can eat in peace. I don't mean i don't want to spread the good news...But everyone that day had a little bit of God inside. Nisha, she was kind and generous. Priscilla was awesome-ly cool game organizer, she made us happy and getting to know each other, Reza was sweet and hilarious with his quiet friend Ali, May, Joanne, Clarisse was being awesomely nice people, Gretchen and Roy was like there busy doing work, Joyce was being well, joy. Leonard was the best accompany i can ever have. Scary note: After the bbq, i saw 2 police with big anti-aircraft machine gun in the lift- apparently to quiet a party in 3A...haha..bet those aussie got scared.

Today, Puteri was sweet and fluffy...i love her hugs....Daniel was a good listener, Nabila always fun and wacky with Wanka (sugar heaven--hell yeah), Jaz, was so funny and like a sister I wanna adopt...she gave birth to her kittens, she adores them dearly.

They are all perfect to me...They are all beautiful to me... Cause they are who they are ...And I'm glad to have people like them....

P/s:Priscilla, your balloon got picked by some guy, hope he doesn't come looking for you .

P.P.S: If there is a cop reading, you don't need a machine guy to raise fear and pulse....your uniform and side guns are enough...seriously dude, WTF?