I wish i was stronger, much more stronger.
I'd wish i would just stop looking for approval...
"There is something about yourself that you don't know. Something that you will deny even exists until it's too late to do anything about it. It's the only reason you get up in the morning, the only reason you suffer the shitty boss, the blood, the sweat and the tears. This is because you want people to know how good, attractive, generous, funny, wild and clever you really are. "Fear or revere me, but please think I'm special." We share an addiction. We're approval junkies. We're all in it for the slap on the back and the gold watch. The "hip, hip, hoo-fucking-rah." Look at the clever boy with the badge, polishing his trophy. Shine on, you crazy diamond. Cos we're just monkeys wrapped in suits, begging for the approval of others. " the movie, Revolver
i wish i was much less nerdier and stop doing or helping people, cause i think its fun. Because, apparently, people think i have ulterior motives...So thats how the world work now?
What i don't know could really fill a few books. doesn't it.....? I personally think puberty hit late for me..cause whatever i said feels like identity crisis to me..
Damn , its October...close to November 3rd...my birthday- 21st..should I be excited?
Nothing would change really, my parents still gives me "nada" freedom .... i don't get a key of freedom, just more locks and fake keys to booby trap...
No partying, no boyfriends, no to weird colour nail polish, or makeup, or curses, or even up to recently- cutting my hair short.
Oh yes, even though i sort of dislike this hairstyle of mine, I don't expect to be called and asked "why did you cut your hair like tat? " or any other i look bad comments....as though i violated another overrated rule again...Its not like i look any better before?...
