Good day, Bay day and Ugly lecturers

i am sick...yes, on Chinese new year, the weather is just too hot.

Okay, i really need to write now,

i think i have really bad luck with lecturers,last sem, my lecturer was replace by 2 other part-timers, and both, well, suck! 1 abit screw, another is practice favoritism and got C for my grade.

Well, this time i hav Ms J, she hates me, uptight and racist,most ppl dun like her,and another resign, we have to be replaced again.

Its seems full of worries, i am so scare.You see ms, J, literally is trying to screw me or she just love and feel that i have the skill to take care of matters. In a group for presentation,each have 3to 4 people. She threw 2 blacks in my group (i am not racist) but,they are not from this country , and my group need to combine with another group for a fieldtrip, in which i took the lead for my group. So man power is limited,not that they dun wanna help but they dun noe how, and i dun noe what to give them to do. So, fine. Guess what all girls and a boy. She say she follow name list,F@@@ that, its not, and its obvious. I mean if u wanna lie, at least put some effort.

Now, this is ok, and coincidently, i have my Ex and his friends who want to tag along and do their assignment.Note that we are both different college, have different assignment, so we trying telling her, and she said No without hearing us at all. And later on, she added another 2 of the ppl she dun like in my group. Maybe she is trying to compensate the black girls she gave, but that just too kind of an act for her. And she is not Kind!

SO now, i have to plan almost everything, am not complaining, just worried, really worried, its my first time doing this kind of thing like planing a fieldtrip to somewhere. Its the first time i take charge, Pressure,plus its Ms J class and its my first time giving orders instead of obeying, I suck! literally. And i dun no the way at all, or maybe the form dun go through or may be not in time , or we may get lost...So many things to consider and to worry

"murphy law,:anything can go wrong will go wrong"

Low sang!!!

Had the reunion dinner yesterday night, again..my sis just had to tagged me on fB, Ugly!!! well, the food was not bad, but it was a dissaster, from 8 pm to 10 pm, literally waiting dish by dish, not only us, some other customer was angry too. They scold, they ate some and when they were impatient they just left.

I went to church today, awesome, i love the priest, he made me understand somethings. I know myself well, i dun have a good history, i dun blame my parents, they protected me and brought me up good,but i am just to rebellious, if they ever know the truth, i am the worst daughter any 1 could have. Was getting sick, but i still go to church, i had some insightful advices from the priest. One i will always remember.

" salvation is not about sin, its about how simple it is to love GOD"

Yup, i am not holy, i admit my mistake is so great, die 10 times still cannot repent.Haha, but somehow give hope to me that maybe he sent me an angel to save this wretched soul. So I am grateful, for all the things i get, my family, a life, a place to stay, food to eat, to see, to hear, to smell, to talk, friends and also a special person in my heart. You know who you are, if you dun then i'll make u strip dance again!!!

ps: now i am really sick...Tata...T.T