greedy? or not?

dong dong dong...what the hell am i thinking...no idea whatsoever.


I saw a partial movie call keeping mum

Creadits to amazon.com

Made me realize what a mess life really is and can be...seems like you have everything in the world, just not enough to get by with other things. We are greedy, we always have been, and I don't think revolution can change that bit. The moment for a new dream, comes with certain level of greedy-ness.


We are never free, Carpe Diem - seize the day... Another word memento mori-remember you must die. Being a little less greedier would defeat the two phases.

I've reread my blog lately, I always talk about love life, and well whine about every other bits of my pathetic (as i thought it was) life.
I read my own progress report by other people, afew aspect i don't understand, but overall, i am a normal average fine person to be with-----hence, no reason to change ME.

So comparing to other resume of other achievements and of other people, I am in the border line...comparing to what the world has to offer, i am so far off track, remind me again what can i do?

Well back to greedy, what does it have to do with 2 paragraph above? thats right, i'm being greedy. I should be praticing cynicism....

Be that self which one truly is -Soren Kierkegaard.

so basically its human nature, its not all bad, if its for the right reason, in other words - people change it by calling it goals, achievements, reward....

So the question is ..should i be greedy? or is it that i should be filled with contentment, stop trying so hard?

Things i need to keep telling myself...Good quote~

I don't like ass kissers, flag wavers or team players. I like people who buck the system. Individualistists. I often warn people: "Somewhere along the way, someone is going to tell you, "There is no "i" in team." What you should tell them is, "Maybe not. But there is an "i" in independence, individuality and integrity." Avoid teams at all cost. Keep your circle small. Never
join a group that has a name. If they say, "we are so and so's" , take a walk. And if, somehow, you must join, if it's unavoidable such as a union or a trade association, go ahead and join. But don't participate: it will be your death. And if they tell you you're not a team player, congratuale them on being observant."

by George Carlin

w3ird

gosh...weird days and i'm getting annoyed easily...

too late for identity crisis...really too late, i'm 20

why does everything be like this? i know God has his divine plan- he is not going to change it for me cause its his will.

i'm lucky, i really am...got good parents, siblings , perfect boyfriend....
one thing i lack off, its me...i don't have me...whatever i have its apparently not acceptable..i'm different...i'm oblivious and naive (people tell me that) well..i want to get rid of it and look beyond...with the amount of boats that sunk in my life...i should have got it by now

i'm just weird=weird day= weird people (stalking and hate mails occur)

someone say i dun care for ppl...i need to care for them more..
but when i do , i feel like an idiot, cause nobody takes it....or if they do, they don't care...

i don't feel like i should talk to anyone about it...its not like they'll know
and i don't think they will take me seriously any more..not that any one had

What i think now -1- know, don't know, will know

when u think u exist..u claim so...but at the same time u know that existence won't always be there...

u know u don't live forever

i wanna live in the moment...maybe share with it, regret some, and make up some

but that don't really happen , do they?

its ......

either you grasp that moment or you don't

then thinking back along the line....you/u

say: fuck it, its no fun anyways

or

say: i wish i've done that

either way

you/u don't know the outcome......

then again...what do u know?

u know that ur a fragment...

u know people won't always be there for u

u know everyone will like u, at least the most of them

u know that parents are good people, they just choose wrong words and wrong time

u know u have goal to meet, dreams to fulfill

u know u need to impress people, so they'll like you

u know skinny people fit....so lose weight

What you don't know

God exists or not?

Mom and Dad...are they ok all the time?

you don't know more than half of life are filled with bad situation.

& whatever you're complaining...it gets worse

you don't know how strong you are

you don't see what and how you are

you care and assume too much

you can't follow your plan the whole way...your bound to be side track.

you don't know behind all those romantic moments, there are effort

you don't know that people like meat on them not bones

you don't have to impress....you're you.

What you will know

You see things in different ways

things won't get better, you will

Love will come, be patient

You've been with jerks and retards.....and if they're ain't worth it-DUMP EM

You're worth it

Its okay to regret, but move on after

You can save YOU, not them

Listen your heart and instinct- They work

Learn to forgive, try to forget, and stay happy