it started with a real bang, and pull my world way down and far that i could possibly imagine. I am struggling to pull myself back up, I'm starting to feel the worse of it. slowly draining what left of humanity i have. And little i have of that. HUMANITY.
which it doesn't make any difference, i was invincible to begin with, so then why all these fears of "what if...one day they find out?" ....Its annoying, and a pain in the ass.
I just want to run and hide. College is like a place that are, sad to say too many lucky and happy people. And they get annoyed and sad for the least amount of reasons that i sometimes call stupid, call me a bitch, but there are alot of people like that. I am not trying to say I am not lucky, I am...just not as much, but i swallow if i can. I liked to think i do....
I know this semester is going to be more tough than it usually is, cause all the technical and professional things that are to be learned and imply on, but i wouldn't say hard, cause i have yet done it. ANd so far, after the bloody mess, i think i don't care already, its pointless. I mess up big time few years back, finally set things right and i'm pulled off track. What is the use of trying?
THe only closure i get is from my boyfriend,who is always amazing and there. I maybe getting a bit too annoying or clingy. But i hope it doesn't drive him away.
I'm slipping away....slowly, and the one who can save me is him, glad to have him. Love you baby.
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