h3Art StAtioN: hello happiness...next time i won't bite..

I meant it when I say, its time to say Yes to the right things, that means No to bad stuff.
Though i won't say NO to alcohol, and definitely not wonka nerds.
Lifes been good, I kinda feel more secure about myself, some things that happened, all together these 4 years been really opaque. So cloudy, and tight-light, I am not even sure what are the things that happen, whose fault is it, and the best part, phone numbers that i thought i'd never forget, I forgot....Its like Robin from HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER.
And most of the time i think my memory has reconstructed consciously.

I just realize that those people who i thought i'd never hang out with, i did...and those who were close, well they left my circle of live completely, reasons being I'm too Awesome for them. No , not that...haha...My personalty isn't that well receive and common, not to mention, my perverted and obscene mind added with humor and well slow to respond, and I naturally don't click well with people...
But be honest, who could actually be likeable to everybody without faking it, if you do see someone like that, most likely well...just put your wage on 50/50 on that person
I grew up alot, thanks to experience...
There was an incident, about wanting to boycott a substitude lecturer and the official one, in one my class, ended up, nobody boycott the lecturer and did as told, but only those who proposed...and everyone was angry at that group cause the substitute teacher had to bring the official lecturer and well, she would have given us an easy A, if n0t because of this. It was a mess, through out the semester, and that probably was the last straw for that group....Honestly speaking that class was not what it suppose to be
They man up...and confess..and well was technically hated by the whole class
But they are my friends aswell, i was part of the class as well..
I was angry at first, but they are my friends and technically, we;re humans, we do stupid stuff something that involves people around us,so I don't really blame them, cause the class is over so is exam as well as everything....and I did my best...
Recently, I was asked to give advice to a close friend of my mom 's daughter. She just finish school.. and thinking of what to study...I know how it feels, and I was like that once, different is she is super smart with 10 As...me only 2... I told her to pick her passion, do what she likes and not to worry bout money, well, with grades like you can get a scholarship almost anywhere. She was not on ground, i think i made her heart more indecisive. But yea , i told her to take your time and choose, and don't choose because you think you can stall time by going to form 6.

But really...who am i to say? I took this major at random, thinking why not, how hard could it be, I like it now,not so sure bout passion, but yea, its not all bad...I suppose its how you adapt... But I want to do broadcasting.. or film or anything..i am open to all things fun. But i know i can never perform...means like acting or modeling, I have skill confidence not my looks or body, I know where i stand....

I am very average, but unique , i suppose, I think in my own way, never liked to be too socialize and too much of following others, i find it tiring....though i don;t mind it once a while....
maybe thats why only awesome and really wacky people hang around me...lol
oh yea, did i mention i scare a guy in class of his seat...he was trying to be talking normal, with a joke of sex or two (or he didn't??) , i scare him off his seat by the way i was talking to Jazzy..hahaha...sorry helwin...I didn't mean any harm...
before anything show u my baby nephew whom i adore much and some photo of me how i look lik now..but its so different between me self-taking pictures and those taken by other ppl....