what a new webcam can do...

super cammmmm......RM38 only

not very good cannot ask so much, plus the model is all dat pretty

What happen to me?

Since when time decrease and i've become so dumb..or become a simpleton...

randommm

A brilliant sun

A brilliant thought

Of you with me

down on the street

Awesome day

Blazing moments

Take breaths away

and then my heart

No more cries

But only smiles

No more frown

Only laughs that shines

Walking across the beautiful green

Passing people with a million faces

I don't see them

I see you.

You (myself) VS I

Call me weak,

Call me anything ,

I'm me.

When you taunt

When you try

I'm don't care.

Cause i'm hanging by the moment,

being me here,

I fall,

I cry,

You laugh,

But its normal.

I'm tired

Facing you, myself

Will you ever follow "I"?

Stop trying to put yourself down

Try putting I to lead...

Guess your sturborn,

As I know,

you are me,

you'd never give way for I

whats wrong with you? whats wrong with me?

First of all...need to announce, had an awesome time in MOS on thursday with my baby

thats right...see my a$$ ..haha~^^

Well, i danced like i never dance before...

Now the shitty part. came back home and here comes the weight problem...i might be 80 kg now (i not sure)..see...i think i look ok, hard to find clothes but hey, i dun lack em yet nor do i need to start counting what i eat..

my sis jac and joni keep saying my ass is ugly and i'm fat though i have not given birth...

Just when i start feeling sexy and lovable, they just had to put me down, Leo says its just that they are jealous...

but i doubt that really....they look better than me...front and back... and basically looked more eurasian i ever did when they were my age...the other thing that i'm better is probably i'm a better cook than they are which in terms, they don't see it as a compliment.

I'd always had weight problem and then came along confidence, when i went to MOS i felt good realizing more people are honest to themselves, dress up better , prettier and dancing the night away without worrying are you blocking the way?...I want to join them...and with Leo's encouragement, i enjoy and i love it, and start appreciating my body...even though i've gain weight.

sometimes i just don't see why they are like that, even though their my closest kin. All i want is a peace of mind without the "weight talk or comments".. am i asking alot?

attention whore....

Its quite a while since i ever wrote...yeap i am feeling shitty today....

why?

i hate admiting stuff that i know its true..example: attention whore

i have this ego thing going...its deep down...( one of the reason why i still keep my tagged account and keeping record of so far 6427 friend request) i dun like to admit it...sometimes i dun mind attention and yes i actually like it at times, being said right in the face "attention whore" and "lame " isn;t what i hoped for though...

Its cold water in your face

I know, i can't take criticism, i suck at it...but i am damn good at criticizing people....i should be fine in the background, its where i've always fit in...reaching literally for the "star", thats not possible, thats not where i should be...

"the person i can be and the person i want to be is 2 different thing...it was why i decided not to have dreams.."

I hate myself for it...its another ugly side of me that i hate people to see....i'm weak..i dun like asking for help, i dun wan to depend on people, yet i still cling on people....

when i write this post, i feel like i am having a dialog with myself....

i hate myself...its just ugly...

people are so blind, and i hate that too...i am not strong, i am not cute nor am i understanding...

i am not all that...

even i dun no what i am...i be myself, but somehow i'm scare how people look at me...

haiz..i'm just being stupid...