whats wrong with you? whats wrong with me?

First of all...need to announce, had an awesome time in MOS on thursday with my baby

thats right...see my a$$ ..haha~^^

Well, i danced like i never dance before...

Now the shitty part. came back home and here comes the weight problem...i might be 80 kg now (i not sure)..see...i think i look ok, hard to find clothes but hey, i dun lack em yet nor do i need to start counting what i eat..

my sis jac and joni keep saying my ass is ugly and i'm fat though i have not given birth...

Just when i start feeling sexy and lovable, they just had to put me down, Leo says its just that they are jealous...

but i doubt that really....they look better than me...front and back... and basically looked more eurasian i ever did when they were my age...the other thing that i'm better is probably i'm a better cook than they are which in terms, they don't see it as a compliment.

I'd always had weight problem and then came along confidence, when i went to MOS i felt good realizing more people are honest to themselves, dress up better , prettier and dancing the night away without worrying are you blocking the way?...I want to join them...and with Leo's encouragement, i enjoy and i love it, and start appreciating my body...even though i've gain weight.

sometimes i just don't see why they are like that, even though their my closest kin. All i want is a peace of mind without the "weight talk or comments".. am i asking alot?