Okay, I had a plan where August I would work my ass off and earn 200$ a week...but it was scattered ever since i came home- I have Quinsy.
I was admitted to the hospital, and stayed there for 3 whole days, not a big deal. Just a syringe down your throat, sucking puss from your tonsils.
Thank God for insurance! Amen!
I really feel useless...I wanted to earn the money to get my boy a proper birthday gift, my sister a MP3 (so she won't hog mine) and myself a couple of dresses (and maybe a corset) for my brothers wedding....
How the hell am i suppose to afford all those things right now?
I am starting to feel like my old self lately, thats not all right.
I think the pressure is starting to hit my again, being at my brother's wedding and a laughing stock.
I have never lost my weight, my salon chopped off half of my hair and obviously, every1 is looking at me like an ugly chick.
No Shops for big girls around here. Only so much you can convince yourself that your beautiful.
He tells me otherwise, that i am all amazing, i wanna believe that, i wanna trust him and think so too. Be positive and all...but its just never easy....
Wish me luck on terror weekend! Shopping for clothes.....urghhhh
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