i dun wan to let u go..

Just read my baby's blog, and i can't help but think how hard is it for me to give him up, i never had any1 like him...i never felt so much for someone before.

Whatever he felt for me, i feel it too... i wanna be with him, now i can't do anything for him. I have to give him up, kinda for 3 years. But i will never know, who would take him away, he said he'll wait...but like my bro says, "thats the standard answer". i dunno whether some other awesome girl would just take him away.

And now i am feeling alone more than ever, i know my mom loves me, and its for my own good, but i just dun have the heart to let go just like that. I am not the person i used to be. It took me back and forth to finally have atleast a bit of happiness and love and i found in him....Nobody has ever accepted me for who i am the way he does.. i know it sounds cliche and all..

I only want the best for my family and for my baby... i just want to do good and be good.. i am not the most good person, but i am trying ..i really am..

Now i feel so alone, my best friend and my roommate is so distance and we are no longer close anymore, and i dun have much friends or support...let just say i am alone....

Now i am not so sure i could even break up with him or not.....coz i only love him too much to ever lose him