Ugly and Not sexy...and definately not in the mood~

Time to update before my baby complain again...haha

I feel sad..and awful . I feel really down

Finally meeting some1 .. the right 1 .Now? I am told to leave him by my own mother.

Yes, its true, being 20 and i can't date. As quote " you still need me to survive, this is one principal i cannot change.....(alot of things being said) ....You find out a way to "dun wan" this yourself, dun make me angry and disappointed any further." thats exactly my mom said...

Dun raise your eyebrows, coz i was shocked and speechless. Then now almost my whole family knows, except my eldest sister ( she will kill me), and my dad (he will die and then kill me). My brother and my sis, jeff and joni knows only because i told em. But they didn't tell my mom, my mom sense it. then she ask me to tell her honestly..

She says it is for my own good. I know what she thinks and i love her so much.. I hate to lie,but its sometimes safe my butt and for not hurting other people. Now i really dun no what to do.. I have been so selfish all the time...Now i know that i am not at all making her proud... But i dun wanna let go either...i love him too much

You mught think its only more than a month , its still fragile, want to break can break easy. But what we have is extreme, and so deep...its going stronger every day...We even made a video yesterday night and finish a very very cheap rum. We slowed dance too...We did this so we can remember the good times, and if we were to be separated ,there is something that keep us together.We were both tipsy...yup...drunk...its was memorable.

Oh yeah, The imagerium of Dr Parnassus, was awesome, it would be better if they made 3d. And Old dogs is awesome too!!! I laugh all the way from start to the end. And um...what more ah...

Now i wanna do my best in convincing her that whatever it is, i love her and need to show her that i am already can handle things properly...I am the youngest , may be they can't see that i am growing up...if only they knew how was i...

hopefully , well...for the best..Baby , i love you..now and if can forever.

(if i can upload the video, i will soon...)